“What do you want for dinner? This vacation is about you,” said my husband on our second day of winter vacation.
He repeated this mantra many times throughout our 12 days in paradise. The first several times, it took me aback: “What do I want? What do I want?”
I’ve lost touch. I really don’t know, deep down. I realized for many years now I’ve made decisions by first measuring other peoples’ desires, or doing what I should do – for society, for the environment, for the people around me.
While many times those decisions turned out to be good for me and good for society, and I don’t regret most of the decisions I have made in my life…
To look deep within myself and find out, truly, what do I want – even something as simple as what do I want for dinner - this is something I haven’t really done in a very long time.
I’m out of practice. And, dare I say, I’m out of touch. Out of touch with me.
Allowing myself to relax.
I felt guilty for traveling 1/2 way across the world for vacation. I felt guilty for spending so much money for a vacation. Society could use this money for so many other things! The environment certainly didn’t need another 3,000 mile flight!
It has been many years – I don’t even know the last time I gave myself a true and complete vacation. A vacation about me. About nurturing me.
My soul needed the sun, the beauty, the quieting.
My lungs needed the ultra pure ocean air.
My body needed reconnecting, nurturing, loving.
My relationship needed focusing and quiet nurturing.
My mind truly needed to unplug.
So I allowed myself to finally relax, for 12 days.
And it changed my life.
This is the year about me.
This year I will focus on writing about reconnecting with
- my soul
- my mind
- my health
Undoubtedly these explorations will all connect with the world around me: my relationships, my neighborhood, my city, and the world as a whole – socially and environmentally. However, first and foremost, I need to nurture me.
So I may lose some of you, dear readers. And I may gain others. But hopefully, whoever you are out there, you will understand that sometimes – throughout our lives – each of us needs to slow down the exterior impacts and truly focus on A Year About Me.*
Happy New Year, Everyone!!
I’ve missed you all.
*And if you don’t know what this means yet (I don’t either!), feel free to stick around for a bit to see if this new direction will help you in some way. It just might!!